I am autistic no that is not an insult so please dont think that way about a very real status of my neural self.
I am not like most of you. I am like some of you.
I tend to run off on tangents, related to the topic I am seeing/hearing.
If I am banned for tangents, silenced like I was in the last thread I posted in, then I do not feel this forum is a place where I would be permitted to speak anymore.
I like to type, alot. I’m hyperverbal, sometimes I cant stop myself from talking/typing, like how a non-verbal sometimes struggles to speak, I struggle to shut up.
but if I am silenced by someone else for being even ‘slightly’ off topic, then I cannot let myself post here anymore. Being reported for something I said that is related to the topic… well my PTSD was hit hard with tha reportt, and I am struggling to stay stable. I had to lie down because I was crying uncontrollably and tears hurt, alot.
Still reeling from fight or flight right now, these FoF are very uncomfortable things, and can even cause long term physical damage to me sometimes.
Being muted because I was slightly off topic, can be painful to me.
I dont wish to risk myself to any further suffering under these conditions.
I love to build, love playing with my friends in Boundless, it helps me feel better about myself… but whoever gave me a suspension for being off on a tangent, should check their views to see if that was really worth it?
I run off on tangents. Related, always related.
But it looks like tangents arent allowed here.
I’m sorry I been unable to follow your hidden rules.
I dont want to offend anyone.
But clearly someone was offended by something I said.
I have no idea what. If I offnede anyone, ever, I am sorry. Please talk to me before just slapping me with a punishment. I am willing to edit if you just let me know what I typed that is so bad that I had to be punished for it so quickly without warning!
I can edit, there is a freaking edit button!
I am done here in these forums. I’m sorry you cant handle what I say.
I wish whoever did that to me, would not be so harsh with punishments, not so quick to judge in the future.
I love to type, and I feeling very off my rocker right now due to still being in the recovery stages of my PTSD episiode, my body is in pain, it is unlike anything else. I want to avoid thsse things, because I do not like pain, this pain. Actions to punish me will set it off, especially when I have done no wrong, not willingly, not consciously. If I have done any wrong so wrong to be punished, give me a chance to edit, not slap a punisment on me so quickly that I am now in a lot of pain because of this action poking my trauma reminder.
This forum is just too dangerous for me when anyone with any slight grievances can mute someone else so easily, and muting me for something that I feel was still related to the topic at hand… I cant risk my verbage here anymore.
I wish I was more able to leave Boundless feedback, but it just is too much nit picking here, and being silenced is a literal hazard to my health. 190 over 140 BP is nothing to play around with.
I’m not kidding here. I am very serious.
I am not safe to even look at replies.
Good luck with all your whatevers making you all so nit picky and quick to judge. I’m not going to post her anymore if I can help it.
I’ll miss this. It was nice while it lasted.